PART I
In my earliest memories, the world is unnervingly quiet. It isn’t the restful quiet of a dawn meadow or a gently sleeping neighborhood; it’s a silence with tension wound throughout, as if the entire landscape were holding its breath in anticipation of an unseen catastrophe. Even at the tender age of five or six, I sensed a conflict buried in daily life—a muteness that strained against a thousand unspoken pressures. Later, through books and debate, through triumphs and failures, I would name that conflict as a grinding, existential tension—a mismatch between human longing and the social machine that devoured it.
My name is Victor Mercer, and if I have grown into a misanthrope, the seeds were planted early. My life’s course—my separation from most people, my extinguished hopes, the accumulation of final betrayals—seems almost preordained by the place where I first drew breath: a failing industrial town, set under an ever-dimming sky. The factories on its outskirts once promised a semblance of security; now they spit trails of gray smoke into an atmosphere turned half-permanent twilight. On the sagging rooftops, rusted weather vanes squeak miserably in the wind, providing a faint soundtrack of mechanical despair.
My father worked at one of those aging plants. Those in charge made sure the supervisors kept their men exhausted, with the looming threat of layoffs or pay cuts driving everyone’s every move. He rarely spoke of ambition, taught me no illusions about chasing dreams. His advice was always the same: “keep your head down. Don’t give them a reason to replace you.” My mother, on the other hand, clung stubbornly to the idea that words themselves could reshape destinies—she was a high school literature teacher who believed passionately that students could be coaxed out of despair by a single poem. At home, her optimism glowed like a small lamp, revealing how thoroughly she believed in the redemptive power of Dickensian arcs and stories of moral turnaround. But outside, in the seeping gloom of our exhausted town, her ideals were overwhelmed by the reality: budget cuts, standardized tests, indifferent teens. Each year, her energy waned, a candle guttering under the daily grind.
Perhaps I hated that hometown not for its poverty but for its resignation. The men and women who trudged to work each day seemed paralyzed by abstract forces they claimed were beyond our control. Rumors of corporate downsizing and shattered pension plans haunted every conversation. Nobody seemed to question it or fight back; they just nodded with concluding shrugs and uttered, “That’s life.” Even as a boy, I rebelled against that attitude. I didn’t know what could replace it, but I knew that there must be some alternative to half-living in perpetual dread.
I read voraciously in my youth, devouring accidentally acquired volumes on philosophy and classic fiction. At eleven, I made an ill-fated, yet enthralling, attempt to read Dostoevsky’s Crime and Punishment. Though the language far exceeded my capacity, I felt an immediate kinship with the narrative’s moral anguish. Guilt, doubt, the swirling fear that all might be lost—these elements became the motifs of my mental life, a daily background hum.
That was also the era when I crossed paths with the one person who mattered to me then: Igor Kuznetsov. He lived four blocks over, in a neighborhood just as beaten by poverty. His father, once employed in a managerial position, had crashed down the social ladder and found work driving deliveries; his mother was chronically ill, and government assistance scarcely covered the basics. Our families were parallel – both of us perched on the edge of the same void.
We first spoke in our school library. He was hunched over a battered history textbook, scribbling commentary in the margins with a precision that intrigued me enough to break my usual reserve. I approached him clumsily, complaining about how pointless I found our social-studies class. His eyes flicked up with a hint of amusement, then he gave a wry laugh.
“We’re the last ones who believe there’s something more waiting for us beyond these run-down streets, aren’t we?”
That single line established our fragile bond on the spot, as though the library air recognized we were two minds dissatisfied with our lot and with the narrowness of everyone else’s lives.
We forged a private alliance—unspoken, unformalized, yet strong. We recognized that we shared a dogged refusal to accept the suffocating constraints of our environment. We haunted the library after school, flipping through philosophy, economics, and psychology, eager to see if other thinkers had noticed the same rot we perceived. Igor latched on to pamphlets about financial independence and self-made successes, certain that if we studied the rules, we could upend them. I dove more into Plato and Shakespeare, enthralled by moral complexities.
“Ideas shape our existence,” I challenged him. “We could get rich, sure, but what’s the point if we stay trapped in the same illusions?”
High school only intensified our synergy. We swapped books, stayed late to watch obscure documentaries, debated fiercely until the janitors kicked us out. When college applications came around, we devoured scholarship listings late into the night. Igor planned to use business savvy to ascend out of the gloom while I aimed to dissect society’s illusions from the inside. By senior year, we had each won partial scholarships to the same state university: I would major in philosophy and critical theory; he gravitated toward economics and business. We parted our old neighborhoods with a sense of triumph, battered suitcases in hand, carrying the tired well-wishes of parents who hoped we might conquer the world where they had failed.
PART II
Stepping onto the university campus felt like entering a new realm—lush lawns, stately buildings, energetic crowds. At least outwardly, everything was a stark contrast to our hometown’s slump. Yet behind the façade, I detected a manic preoccupation with “careers” and “networking,” concepts I found vague and vaguely repellent. Most students seemed bent on forging bulletproof résumés. Yet I discovered a sanctuary in the library’s enormous archives of journals and manuscripts devoted to sociology, philosophy, and critical theory. Academic language, dense though it was, validated the suspicion that modern institutions—religion, law, capitalism—were elaborate constructs of control.
Igor, on the other hand, found every reason to adore the corporate side of campus. The business department dazzled him with seminars on analytics, marketing, and leveraging markets. We tried maintaining our old tradition—meeting up to gripe about the superficial parties, the fraternities fueled by cheap beer, the clubs worshipping LinkedIn profiles as if they were totems. But tension seeped in. Igor’s conversation shifted; it brimmed with the excitement of “ethical marketing” or “policy synergy.” I was reading Adorno, Horkheimer, and Marcuse—finding affirmation that Western capitalism was a ravenous monster, devouring the public’s emotional and moral life. With each passing month, our discussions turned more pointed. He suspected I was too lost in conspiracy thinking; I suspected he was too eager to harness illusions for profit. Still, we believed our bond transcended ideological divides.
Midway into my sophomore year, I wrote a paper titled “The Manufactured Self: Capital, Cognition, and the Illusion of Autonomy.” It was a vitriolic dissection of how consumer culture conditioned desire; how corporate entities shaped us from birth through subtle conditioning. My professor was intrigued enough to invite me to present at a departmental forum. Igor showed up and posed what he considered a balanced question: “Is there truly no way to use these corporate mechanisms to advance the public good?” My response was a reflexive condemnation: “These systems feed on manipulation. You can’t repurpose them without replicating the harm. The so-called ‘common good’ would become another ad campaign.” He seemed hurt, but we parted with stilted respect.
Despite our growing distance, we shared an apartment. We still joked about cheap cafeteria food and incompetent cooking. One evening, Igor chuckled, twirling a spatula in the cramped kitchen, “At least we got out of that dead-end factory town.” I nodded, but my thoughts drifted to my mom’s unwavering faith in literature, my father’s monotone directive to keep my head low. Physically, yes, we had left. But mentally, I wasn’t sure I’d ever escape the undertow of that place. A spark of gloom lingered in me, overshadowed by the desperate hope that higher education might help me decode the world’s grand illusions.
PART III
Junior year, I immersed myself deeper in critical theory, earning a spot in an advanced seminar taught by a Frankfurt School devotee. We read texts that systematically dismantled the hidden apparatus behind capitalism and institutional power. My evolving thesis, which would become my doctoral project, was “Instrumental Reason and the Commodification of Lived Experience.” Each chapter placed a scalpel to society, dissecting how schools, the justice system, healthcare, and religion had all corroded under the priority of profit. I was thrilled to discover entire canons that confirmed my darkest suspicions: that everything was for sale in the modern era, including basic human spirit.
That sense of lonely triumph was cut by an unexpected encounter with a sociologist named Elena Michaels. I had given a guest lecture in a class about corporate sponsorships eroding the autonomy of public schools. While the other students filed out, Elena remained at her desk, flipping through her scribbled notes. Her first remark was a calm critique: “You missed how race and class amplify this corporate meddling—especially in chronically underfunded districts.” She’d spent summers researching precisely that. Intrigued, I invited her for coffee at the musty campus café.
What followed was a conversation that shook me. Elena described modern society as a “viral system,” an organism that devours resources and mutates to protect power structures. She was every bit as radical and incisive as I was, but behind her criticisms glimmered a guarded optimism. She believed that small pockets of genuine empathy and grassroots activism could push back. For me, it was stunning: someone who read the world’s corruption as keenly as I did, yet refused to slide into absolute despair.
My own lecture series now had a new, enthralled, audience member. Elena would slip into a seat at the back, watching with an intensity that made me strive to refine my indictments. Afterward, we’d chat for hours. Our debates on capitalism’s infiltration of human life were electric—her angles always sharpened with field observations about real communities. Igor, meanwhile, was abroad on some fancy business program. By the time he returned, Elena and I had decimated whatever remained of the boundary between intellectual camaraderie and emotional closeness. I was unaccustomed to tenderness, but it crept in all the same—late-night discussions morphing into unspoken confessions, her warm presence countering my existential gloom. Her stance that pockets of genuine kindness still mattered balanced the gravity of my cynicism. Without fanfare or confessional theatrics, we became intimately joined.
When Igor came back and found Elena at our apartment, he eyed us with polite surprise. At the dinner table over leftover noodles, Elena’s unwavering logic clashed with Igor’s new managerial values. He championed harnessing corporate illusions for better ends; she dismissed that as top-down paternalism. I tried to moderate, but the rift was evident. He belonged to an ambitious business sphere; she to a tireless quest for truth beneath power structures. That tension threaded itself into our dinners, our jokes, our recollections of past years. I prayed we could keep it all from exploding.
PART IV
My doctoral defense arrived sooner than expected. I stood at the front of a stuffy room, reading from the final draft of “Instrumental Reason and the Commodification of Human Experience.” In that dissertation, I indicted every institution that traded moral integrity for financial gain. The faculty committee included some sympathetic figures, but the session turned tense when corners of academia accused me of offering no solutions. I argued that once a system was so diseased, mere reforms amounted to cleaning a window when the foundation was crumbling. They conferred, shot glances both curious and wary, then passed me with distinction.
Igor was there, arms folded in the back, an inscrutable smile on his face. Elena grasped my hand once the committee announced their verdict, relief shining in her eyes. When Igor finally approached to congratulate me, his words carried hidden barbs about how bleak my worldview had become. I gave him a half-smile, feeling Elena’s gentle presence remind me not to lash out.
As we walked away later, Elena’s fingers twined with mine. I spoke little. The heaviness of condemnation hung over me—I had just publicly validated my own conviction that the world was rotten to its core. And yet, there was a shy exultation in knowing that I laid it all out, without compromise, under the institutional glare.
PART V
Elena and I rented a modest apartment near the university, though we avoided the phrase “moving in together.” The place was cramped, the carpets worn, and the kitchen had knives that barely sliced. Yet in that tiny domain, we built a fragile refuge. Mornings were quiet—she woke early to read her sociology notes, scribbling margin thoughts about inequality, local policy, and field research. I watched her from across our small table, coffee in hand, studying her as she lost herself in data and empathy. Then, as the day progressed, we each went to our separate tasks—my teaching, advising a few curious students on critical theory, and her trudging through neighborhoods that illustrated broken social institutions in real time.
Nights were a gentler kind of intense. We cooked cheap meals and embarked on labyrinthine conversations. She’d place her notebook in my lap, showing me a story from the communities she visited—a child forced to drop out and work, a teacher frustrated by administrative red tape. My typical condemnation of “the system” would flow, but Elena maintained that individual gestures of kindness still held meaning. Even if the corporate monster overshadowed everything, small voices could matter. I argued that such kindness was easily co-opted by the system we loathed, sold back as “feel-good marketing.” She never fully conceded, nor did she prove me wrong. We existed in that tension, warming each other in the knowledge that neither of us was alone.
Igor’s presence dwindled. He visited occasionally, always in a rush, wearing an air of self-satisfied fatigue. His business analytics gig involved micro-targeting consumer impulses. I asked if the ethical dilemmas bothered him. He gave me a nonchalant shrug: “Better we do it than the unscrupulous. At least we can guide it responsibly.” Elena shook her head with barely disguised skepticism. For me, it took an effort not to let nostalgia blind me to the reality that our old intellectual bond was wilting.
Everything changed when Elena began experiencing severe abdominal pain. She chalked it up to stress from fieldwork, but when it worsened, we went to the hospital. Sitting with her in a fluorescent-lit examination room, I felt an ominous chill. The doctor’s words—pancreatic cancer, advanced—rang in my ears like a bell toll that refused to fade.
In the onslaught of shock, I watched Elena’s expression become strangely calm. Her hand felt cold in mine. The doctor pitched talk of treatment paths: chemo, possible surgeries, clinical trials. Each option carried disclaimers, uncertain success rates. I studied these professionals as they delivered heartbreak with a veneer of scientific precision, wondering if they had perfected the empathetic tilt of the head to keep their distance.
Elena chose chemotherapy, hoping for more time. It ravaged her body—she spent days curled up beneath thick blankets, sweat plastering her hair to her forehead. I brought her water, read to her from the books and articles we once debated. I tried to hide my terror, but every cough, every hitch in her breath, tore at me. Gone was any sense of academic detachment. There was only raw helplessness. I realized that love—though I had never used the word in front of her—was not an abstract concept but a desperate ache in my chest, a physical longing to keep her with me.
Once, in a moment of lucidity, she joked that her body was failing like the systems we criticized—breaking under unstoppable forces. I couldn’t bring myself to banter back. I stared at her hollow cheeks and felt every piece of me shattering. At night, I listened to the hum of hospital machines, remembering how she believed in compassion’s ability to endure. Now, drained of illusions, I would have given anything just to keep her breathing steadily for another day.
The end approached after weeks of slow decline. I sat beside her as her breathing slowed, each shallow breath seeming like the last. Then it stopped entirely. A single, continuous beep from the monitor seemed to freeze time. Nurses stepped quietly into the room; words of sympathy draped in professional smoothness. I kept holding her hand, as if that small point of contact could ward off reality. Eventually, someone touched my shoulder, urging me to let go. I obeyed mechanically, numb with grief that defied expression.
The funeral was small, attended mostly by colleagues and a few of the families she’d helped in her sociology research. Someone played Bach on a borrowed speaker, the music drifting through the chapel. I stood at the front row in a haze, unable to muster any grand eulogy. What words could suffice for a woman who had forced me to see faint lights amid the darkness? I felt I had failed her by withholding a direct declaration of love, but now there was no reversing that error.
Afterward, at the cemetery, I heard the faint thud of soil against her coffin, each impact an echo of finality. Igor’s absence at the funeral was explained by a perfunctory note from overseas. I folded it away, neither angry nor consoled. In the depths of my sorrow, everything simply felt meaningless.
Returning to our apartment was a fresh wound every day. Her possessions—books on activism, a chipped mug she refused to discard—remained exactly where she left them. One night, I found a single strand of her hair caught in a woolen scarf she loved. Holding that delicate filament, I collapsed on the floor, sobbing until my ribs hurt. My formidable intellect was useless against this pain that scoured my insides.
Days blurred into weeks. The city continued its frenetic pulse, indifferent to my grief. I hated the sight of commuters rushing on train platforms, ignoring each other, engrossed in phone screens. My theoretical condemnation of society meshed with a personal anguish that gave it sharper edges. Where Elena had once tempered my cynicism, I now had no reason to do anything but fling blame at the monstrous culture around me.
Eventually, I managed to fulfill the administrative formalities to end my teaching position. My final article, a savage piece titled “The Necropolitics of Institutional Compliance,” provoked enough controversy that the university made it clear I was no longer welcome. I resigned, gathering my books and notes into boxes. Outside the campus, I recalled how Elena and I had once walked these courtyards, weaving our ideals into a future that now seemed grotesquely unattainable. I drifted downtown, renting a dingy studio that mirrored my internal vacantness. The building’s walls were scrawled with graffiti, and the elevator lights flickered with failing electricity. I did not complain. It matched my mood.
PART VI
My new daily routine felt surreal. I woke late, stared at the grimy ceiling, flipped through half-finished drafts on my laptop. My dissertation had concluded that capitalism relentlessly commodified all experience. Now, I watched that dynamic at street level—billboards promising bliss in consumer form, job recruiters touting illusions of self-empowerment, advertisements that molded insecurities into monetary gains.
I occasionally ventured outside for groceries, ignoring the forced smiles of exhausted clerks. The city soared above me in towering glass monoliths, each proclaiming some brand’s grand ambition. In the walkways, people scurried, scanning phone apps for the next big sale or the next ephemeral jolt of dopamine. I recognized them as unwitting cogs trapped in illusions they never questioned. My own illusions had long since been shattered by Elena’s death, by the empty shell of sincerity that Igor had become.
I wrote sporadically. The pages gained bitterness with each passing day, describing how corporate infiltration had turned intimate emotions into market niches. Whether it was love, faith, or community spirit, everything was packaged for profit. My pen dripped with fury. At times, I remembered Elena’s insistence that small bursts of empathy might be the key. But without her, that hope rang hollow.
One afternoon, an expensive-looking envelope appeared beneath my door, bearing the stamp of “Skyline Tower, 39th Floor.” The enclosed note read:
“Victor,
You are cordially invited to a promotion celebration for Igor Kuznetsov.
Venue: The Aurora Bar, Midtown.
We would be honored by your presence.”
I stared at it, feeling my heart clench. Igor’s success was no surprise, but seeing it spelled out in gilded lettering jolted me more than I expected. I was torn: contempt told me to ignore the invitation; curiosity drove me to see what he had become. Eventually, curiosity won. I needed to confirm whether the bond of our youth had entirely eroded into the corporate cynicism I now despised.
PART VII
The Aurora Bar crowned the top floor of a sleek high-rise, all tinted glass and elegant marble. When I arrived, an elevator whisked me up with a trio of junior executives who chatted about stock options and strategic expansions. I felt as if I were eavesdropping on an alien species. The elevator’s doors slid open onto a glittering foyer illuminated by discreet track lighting, well-dressed figures milling about with drinks in hand. Smooth lounge music swirled in the background.
I stepped inside, scanning for Igor. A swirl of polished suits and expensive smiles parted. At last, he spotted me and approached, radiating confidence. His hair was slightly longer, and his suit was tailored to perfection. “Victor,” he said in a tone that balanced warmth and condescension. “I was afraid you’d vanish forever.”
“Still here,” I murmured. “Though it feels like venturing into an alternate reality.” I gestured at the sleek décor, the panoramic windows revealing a thousand sparkling city lights below.
He gave a half-laugh, swirling his drink. “What do you think? It’s quite a step up from where we started.”
“It’s…impressive,” I answered, unwilling to delve deeper.
He nodded, scanning the crowd behind him. “Let me mingle with some investors. We’ll talk more later, all right?”
Without waiting for confirmation, he moved off, sliding into a circle of associates. I watched him, remembering the scrawny teenager who devoured library books. Here, he was a seasoned performer, comfortable in a world I found vacuous.
Wandering, I overheard scraps of conversation—market projections, IPOs, data analytics for consumer profiling. Costumed waitstaff wove through the guests, offering cocktails and delicate finger foods. I felt queasy as I remembered my research on commodification, seeing every principle alive and well in this space. Yet I forced myself to remain. I traced the perimeter to a terrace balcony, where cool air slapped me in the face. The city sprawled below in luminous patterns. Elena would have seen this spectacle as the culmination of late-capitalist illusions: so brilliant, yet empty inside. I closed my eyes, haunted by her memory.
An hour later, Igor rejoined me in the now-thinned crowd. He looked flushed with success, a half-smile etched on his face.
“Thanks for coming,” he began, sipping the last of his drink. “I’m grateful to see you, truly.”
I examined him. “Seems you’ve ascended quickly. Data and analytics appear to have rewarded you.”
He shrugged. “It’s about understanding the game—where the public’s attention flows, how to guide it. That’s all it is, really.”
“Guide, or manipulate?” I retorted softly.
He leaned in, eyebrows lifting. “Ah, that’s your old condemnation. You know the truth, though: society wants illusions. We deliver them in a manner that can be channeled for progress.”
A wave of anger flared. “Progress? This entire environment is people bragging about controlling the masses. You brush it off as mere cynicism, but that’s exactly what’s happening.”
Igor sighed, eyes flicking over me. “You haven’t changed. The difference is, I realized that real power lies in shaping narratives, not just diagnosing them. Let’s face it: You’re stuck in moral outrage while I’m shaping the structures you claim to hate.”
We glared at each other, the old fellowship replaced by a chasm. The mention of Elena hovered unspoken, an ache I knew he would never truly understand. Eventually, we parted ways, me stepping out into the corridor with a sense of finality. The friend I once clung to had vanished into the bright illusions of profit. I felt a near-physical pain as I remembered how close we had been, forging notes in that battered library so long ago.
PART VIII
Long after the Aurora Bar gathering, I found myself in my dim studio, reflecting on the harsh path that brought me here. My heartbreak for Elena and my disgust at Igor’s trajectory condensed into one overarching condemnation of modern life. Each day, I typed away in half-lit solitude, composing a final testament that braided my personal tragedies with the monstrous shape of a capitalist system that devours authenticity.
At first, I believed these writings could be a second dissertation—a clarion call to awaken the sleepwalkers. But eventually, I realized that I was merely memorializing my conclusion that there was no redemption left for humanity. In the end, the corporate apparatus consumed all: love, in my case destroyed by disease but also overshadowed by the world’s indifference; friendship, in Igor’s case perverted by greed masquerading as ambition. If Elena’s hope had once been the slender thread tethering me to compassion, then her death severed it for good.
Thus, I gather my experiences here, not as a confession but as a post-mortem on the illusions so many cling to. My father taught me resignation; my mother taught me to hope in literature’s power; Igor taught me that ambition scaffolds itself on exploitation; Elena taught me that compassion could survive even in a barren field—until fate decided otherwise. Each piece of that puzzle led me to conclude that, yes, the world is precisely the monstrous organism I dreaded it to be. My condemnation is thorough, all-consuming.
I exist now in near-complete withdrawal from the social sphere, eking out a minimal life among the city’s neon illusions. I see office workers trotting to drab cubicles, families pinning hopes on marketing slogans, and acquaintances forging fleeting alliances on social media. Nothing in their bright mania moves me—even those acts of kindness Elena prized seem dwarfed by a system that grinds them into commodities the moment they surface. To me, nothing is left but to watch from afar as the machinery churns onward.
Igor is at the apex now, presumably orchestrating new expansions, analyzing data to refine how best to stir the public’s ephemeral desires. I wonder if, somewhere, he feels a pang for the library benches where our camaraderie began. But he has chosen his path, and I—broken by Elena’s loss, alienated from the city’s illusions—have chosen mine. That gulf cannot be bridged.
Some nights, I dream of the old factory skyline in my hometown, the smog drifting across a dying sun. In the dream, Elena walks beside me, pointing to a meaning nestled in the gloom, a tiny ember of empathy still flickering. I wake, torn between longing and fury, because that ember is precisely what the corporate apparatus devours. Meanwhile, Igor sits far above, turning the gears of a digital empire pledged to the science of manipulation.
I offer these words as a final record, an autopsy of my own optimism. If they serve any purpose, it is to warn that once the illusions are recognized, one can never rejoin the pageantry without feeling complicit. Love, the only force that might have saved me, has vanished with Elena’s last breath. My final friend has metamorphosed into a polished functionary of the very powers we once defied. And so, I conclude:
Humanity has proven unworthy of the sacrifices, the tears, the fleeting illusions that fueled it. When an entire civilization is choreographed by predatory appetites, perhaps the sole rational response is disengagement. Let the city’s lights shine, let them tower into the midnight sky. Let them persuade the unsuspecting that tomorrow will bring unstoppable progress. I have no stake in those illusions anymore. In the hush of my tiny studio, I write these pages and prepare to vanish from the stage. The monstrous organism that calls itself human society will continue to feast on illusions and devour authenticity. Yet at least one voice—mine—has testified to its underlying disease.
And so, I end in silence. Let them claim triumph. Let them rename exploitation as salvation. I, for one, will not watch further. I refuse to be the captive audience for a civilization cannibalizing what remains of decency. Elena is gone; her last vestiges of hope turned to dust. Igor is enthroned, or perhaps entombed, in a fortress of illusions. My own heart is as calloused as the city sidewalks. I gave it all the rigorous scrutiny of a scholar who lost his faith in the very possibility of redemption.
I close this chronicle in the only honest manner: humanity, in its infinite cunning, has left me no reason to bear witness any longer. If there remains a shred of moral sense hidden in the crowd’s trifling gestures, it is overshadowed by market calculus and the cult of personal gain. What this malignant organism truly deserves is the echo of its own voice: a hollow ring, reverberating in the empty corridors of skyscrapers and factories, until the entire edifice collapses under its own weight.
Draw the curtain. Extinguish the lights. That is my verdict, and it brings me a certain grim peace.
—Victor Mercer
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